Dean

These two poems are about a brave man I once knew who gave himself to save a group of children including the eldest of his two sons.

Savior

Headlights shine side by side,

ignorantly growing near.
One thought in his head
Save the young.

Three steps forward,
flash of lights,
screams cry out.
One blink of pain,
now he's flown.

No More

The sun shines,

The moon gleams,

but Dean is never more.

The wind blows,

the rain falls,

but Dean's end has come.

Screw the moon,

Erase the sun,

Forget the rain,

And destroy wind.

There is no Dean ever again.

Life

Life, Stress, Death
You may run it off your mind,
or even hide from it behind music.
But it's still there
all life's crappy times.
I may grieve or cry and scream
but life still moves on.
People abuse each other millions of ways,
But then they pass the buck.
When it comes my way there's only one thing I'll do.
Drop that buck and cut the line. 
No one need their stress and pain
with that blame too.
I'll drop it with all the fucks I give.
No matter how hard times may get I trudge on.
Not caring lightens my load 
even if it keeps me alone.
Although, 
I will never give up,
I also will not fight when it is my end
for death is only the next great adventure.

Wishing

Wishing

Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.
 So when life gets tough you can just play pretend. 
I wanna go back to when Santa did exist. 
When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed. 
When Disney World was the best place to be. 
When the only movies you could see were rated G. 
When your biggest problem was learning to write your name
When people didn't change...and your friends were the same.
And every time you felt sad or you had a bad day. 
You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay. 
I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter. 
When everyone always lives happily ever after.

Just Because...

 Just because....

Just because I'm blonde,
        Doesn't mean I'm gullible.
        Doesn't mean I'm dumb.
        Doesn't mean I have no life.
Just because I'm blonde,
        Doesn't mean I have no friends.
        Doesn't mean I'm shallow.
        Doesn't mean I'm girly.
Just because I'm blonde,
        Doesn't mean I always cry.
        Doesn't mean I have no fight.
Just because I'm blonde,
        I want you to treat me right.
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Just because I'm always smiling,

         Doesn't mean I have secrets. 

         Doesn't mean I'm always happy.

         Doesn't mean I never hide.

Just because I'm always smiling,

         Doesn't mean I don't care.

         Doesn't mean my life is perfect.

         Doesn't mean I like what your words.

Just because I'm always smiling,

         Doesn't mean I never hate myself,
         Doesn't mean I like everyone or even anyone.

Just because I'm always smiling,

          I want you to truly care.

Never Enough

 Never Enough

How come sometimes no matter what I do,
 it's never good enough for you?
I rise above in all I do do still not good enough for you.
I do everything you say to do,
Never enough for you.
What is good enough for you?
An Angel sent to you?
A picture perfect daughter all to you?
I'm sorry I'm not enough for you.